Works by Julia Brandenberger

In Constant Need of a Blessing

in constant need of a blessing

FringeArts, February 2018. Photos and video by Colin Logue


Don’t want art to

Be about collecting fans

Or the stability and success

Of my arT,

To be about

Building an audience base


I want it to be about

The soul,

Exploring the soul

And sharing of art

Just to be simply that

A way of sharing

What’s going on

For each of us

And our stories



I am in Constant Need of

A Blessing

When living in a culture where

Being able to make art

And share art

Depends on getting fudning

Getting outer approval

Getting people to see it in

Mass amounts

So that it can be deemed



It requires that I continue

To prove


And over again

That the work is valuable

That the ideas are valuable

That I have value as an aristt

That there is some good stuff here



It is not a given

It is a competitive mindset

That there is only

So much attention

And resources


And one has to prove that

They deserve it

And it happens


And over again

It seems like there should

Really just be,


An instance or so

Of this


That a person may


With feelings of being inadequate

And not valuable


And it takes blessings from the


In order to realize my value

And see that I have worth

That my belief in my skills is founded

And I am acutally endowed

In certain ways

That I have something important

To give

Something that is valuable



When I haVE to


And over again

Prove that it’s true

And keep having to prove to people

And say

Arne’t I valuable? Don’t I deserve to

Make art and show it?

Don’t I deserve to be funded?

Don’t I deserve to be heard?


Then I am in constant Need

Of that Blessing


It sets up this void

Where I don’t ever actually

Know that

I am good enough


I don’t ever actually know that

I am valuable

That I do have something

Of importance

To share


Because I’m


Having to prove it

And constantly in need

Of that Blessing

That thing from the


That says “Yes”